Let's Talk About Anxiety
Hello all! I had the best experience this week! My anxiety has always been an issue for me. Social and general anxiety have sometimes been really hard to handle. But I've had the most amazing experience having a cat with my anxiety. I've always wanted to get a dog or cat but never have been able to. Or at least I've always stopped myself from a pet. But it's been so much better than I expected. I think it's SO important to learn to manage your anxiety. Figure out your triggers and make sure you're learning how to calm yourself down.
A few nights ago I was laying in bed and I heard a helicopter flying above me. I didn't think anything of it. But then I heard it over and over and over again. Then I suddenly started seeing the spotlight of the helicopter flashing into our bedroom. Freaky, right? So my anxiety jumped so fast! I started frantically looking up all the possibilities as to why a helicopter was flying over my house. That only peaked it further. So I sat there asking Garrett to wake up and check the doors and windows. It was bad. I was getting VERY worried it would only keep getting worse.
Our kitten has only been with us for a little more than a week. So he's definitely still getting used to us and our apartment. He had just started laying on our bed. My anxiety started getting to where I was having a hard time breathing. All of a sudden our sweet little kitten Ole came up to me and laid right on my upper chest and started purring. I was stunned. I couldn't even believe that this kitten who is in a whole new environment with new people was helping ME!
I sat and listened to his heartbeat, his purring and breathed in and out. It was a beautiful moment of meditation for me. To just be present. Be happy. Be still.
No one who lives with anxiety on a daily basis likes talking about it. When I realized I had anxiety I had never even heard the word before. My brother came home from his mission with EXTREME anxiety. I have yet to hear a worse story than his. So suddenly we all became very aware of anxiety. I felt weak. I felt bad that I couldn't just calm myself down. Or just have friends like everyone else. My social and general anxiety was debilitating in highschool. It was obvious no one knew the silent struggle I was having.
Now that I've learned so much about my anxiety, I've had beautiful moment through it. Like the one I just shared with you. I've had my kitten, husband, son, Savior, and Father in Heaven truly heal me in the moment. I'm grateful for my anxiety. Yes, sometimes I wish I could think like someone who doesn't deal with this. But I have learned so much about myself. And I've learned how much peace Heavenly Father and the Savior can do for me. I think that's pretty lucky for me.
Anyways, I hope you all know that struggling with a mental illness doesn't make you weak. It gives Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ work in you. To heal you. Make you a better YOU. And you will learn so much along the way. Don't ever let Satan make you feel less than someone who doesn't deal with what you deal with. Being you, is pretty amazing. Embrace your imperfections. They make you, YOU.
A few nights ago I was laying in bed and I heard a helicopter flying above me. I didn't think anything of it. But then I heard it over and over and over again. Then I suddenly started seeing the spotlight of the helicopter flashing into our bedroom. Freaky, right? So my anxiety jumped so fast! I started frantically looking up all the possibilities as to why a helicopter was flying over my house. That only peaked it further. So I sat there asking Garrett to wake up and check the doors and windows. It was bad. I was getting VERY worried it would only keep getting worse.
Our kitten has only been with us for a little more than a week. So he's definitely still getting used to us and our apartment. He had just started laying on our bed. My anxiety started getting to where I was having a hard time breathing. All of a sudden our sweet little kitten Ole came up to me and laid right on my upper chest and started purring. I was stunned. I couldn't even believe that this kitten who is in a whole new environment with new people was helping ME!
I sat and listened to his heartbeat, his purring and breathed in and out. It was a beautiful moment of meditation for me. To just be present. Be happy. Be still.
No one who lives with anxiety on a daily basis likes talking about it. When I realized I had anxiety I had never even heard the word before. My brother came home from his mission with EXTREME anxiety. I have yet to hear a worse story than his. So suddenly we all became very aware of anxiety. I felt weak. I felt bad that I couldn't just calm myself down. Or just have friends like everyone else. My social and general anxiety was debilitating in highschool. It was obvious no one knew the silent struggle I was having.
Now that I've learned so much about my anxiety, I've had beautiful moment through it. Like the one I just shared with you. I've had my kitten, husband, son, Savior, and Father in Heaven truly heal me in the moment. I'm grateful for my anxiety. Yes, sometimes I wish I could think like someone who doesn't deal with this. But I have learned so much about myself. And I've learned how much peace Heavenly Father and the Savior can do for me. I think that's pretty lucky for me.
Anyways, I hope you all know that struggling with a mental illness doesn't make you weak. It gives Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ work in you. To heal you. Make you a better YOU. And you will learn so much along the way. Don't ever let Satan make you feel less than someone who doesn't deal with what you deal with. Being you, is pretty amazing. Embrace your imperfections. They make you, YOU.
Comments
Post a Comment