The Old Fashion Wife

             One thing I hope people can walk away from my blog posts feeling is that they read something real, raw, and unfiltered. A breath of fresh air from the "perfect" pictures we usually post, to read real thoughts. I feel I am very open that my life is very imperfect. Yet, I love it that way. Some aspects of my life are harder to love. But all in all my life has always been something I am grateful for.              Of course, I'd be lying if I didn't say I dealt with daily anxiety attacks. Some are completely irrational like being murdered while walking from my sister's condo to my car to thinking I'm gonna die the next time I'm in a car. But sometimes my anxiety attacks don't seem so irrational like freaking out I'm gonna mess up on my kid to never being financially independent and always living in an apartment.              I know I'm not alone in these fears. Some of our...

           I wrote a post about Hudson’s birth so I suppose it’s time for Beverly’s birth to be shared with the world lol. Beverly’s pregnancy went by so much faster than Hudson’s! But I did have a toddler keeping me preoccupied during those 9 months so I guess it makes sense lol. Beverly all throughout her pregnancy was SO ACTIVE! She constantly kicked and started at 14 weeks. I always felt her & even saw her moving so much. She woke me up from how hard her kicks were. I got a little nauseous with her but my main symptom, like with Hudson, was a loss of appetite. I craved Cane’s chicken my entire pregnancy, thanks for those late night runs Garrett lol. And of course after awhile I just couldn’t wait anymore to meet my little girl. I can’t tell you how many times I sobbed to Garrett and my mom saying “Can I just hold her already?! Can I just have my baby please?!”            Fast forward to, Sunday, January 20th. I woke up...

             A tired mom has had a rough day. She's dealt with a tantrum filled day with her toddler and decides to go to lunch when her husband gets home from work. She's in baggy sweat pants, pulled up dirty hair, baggy shirt, and slip on shoes. She's feeling run down in every department. Emotionally she deals with feelings of inadequacy in her abilities as a mother. Her toddler is still in tantrum mode in the restaurant, leaving her with heightened feelings of inadequacy in her motherhood. She wonders how her husband still looks at her and thinks she's beautiful. She wonders what others are thinking about her and her tantrum toddler while she waits for her husband to get their food. Looks like a disaster, right?              Suddenly an older woman approaches her and her son. The mother didn't even realize this woman was paying attention to her at all. She looks at the older woman to try and hear over everyone wh...

             Life has been so crazy! My updates on my life are I'm pregnant with baby #2! After much consideration and prayer Garrett and I decided it was time for another spirit to join our family. A baby girl will be adding to our craziness February of 2019. When we announced to my family that we were pregnant with a little girl, my sister later came to tell me that she felt very strongly that this baby was needed at this time. Her husband also privately told my husband the same thing. Oddly enough, we've felt overwhelming inspired how much this little girl needs to join our family at this time. How amazing to hear that same inspiration coming from someone outside of your little family? It was a huge testimony builder. It added to our excitement seeing how happy those 2 were for us. Now, as weird as it is, this post isn't necessarily going to be surrounding the news of this little girl. More our little girl will be a secondary reason to write this po...

             Soooooo hey y'all!! We've moved into a bigger place & I've barely had time to breath so I apologize for the absence. But I finally have something I feel very strongly about. Does anyone ever sit and wonder, why don't I have any close friends? As a millennial, it's hard not to get caught up in seeing people tag their friends in memes, videos, or photos. You sit and think "man, I wish I had friends." But is anyone else the type that has people reaching out as friends and you think, "wow. Having friends is hard." Now that may be where I'm at in life. I've got a husband and son to take care of so my time is very limited. But I often wonder why I don't have friends!              My therapist has analyzed me as a person & has categorized me as an amiable person. My primary personality is amiable and my secondary is expressive. Amiable people pay attention to detail. They don't want just a fun conversat...

            It's mother's day and it's a day to reflect and appreciate our mothers. But I'd like to just speak to women in general today. We have mothering from the time we're little. Some women prepare they're whole lives to become a mother and sadly never become mother's but are mothers to those around them. Some women are mother's who never knew they wanted to even be a mother until they were a mother. Some women are mother's but never quite feel good enough or that they deserve what they have. Some women aren't mother's yet but are preparing themselves for that phase of they're lives. But nonetheless, this post is for you.              Being a mother is literally putting someone's life into your hands. So no wonder we all think we're failing. We have the closest glimpse of what Heavenly Father's love for us feels like and we want the absolute best for them. But at the same time we're humans who mess up. We fail daily ...